Fear

If you asked the 10 year old me what the scariest moment in my life was, I would tell you it was being the starting pitcher in a championship baseball game. That pressure and fear was something I had never felt before until that day.

 

If you asked me when I was 12 years old, I would tell you it was my dad losing his job and not being able to find a new job for almost a year. Since I knew my family lived paycheck to paycheck, I was scared we would end up homeless, living in our car.

 

If you asked me when I was 21 years old what the scariest moment in my life I was, I would tell you it was getting married at 21 years old. I was about to commit my life to someone and be responsible for a sustainable relationship with another person for the rest of my life.

 

If you asked me when I was 22 years old, I would tell you it’s when I found out I was going to be a dad. I was young, in debt, and working as a janitor. I could barely take care of myself. How was I going to take care of a child?

 

If you asked me when I was 28 years old, I would tell you it’s the day I signed the closing documents on a piece of property. I had invested every penny we had into real estate, in a recession. I was taking a huge risk with my family’s future. This was now the scariest moment of my life.

 

If you asked me right now, I would tell you it was just a few months ago. Seeing my 89 year old Grandpa on life support and knowing there was nothing I could do to help him.

 

Life is a series of moments. And some of those moments are scary. They’re either too much for us to handle or deep down we know we simply aren’t equipped to handle them because we’ve never experienced anything like it before.

 

To all of us waiting for that next scary moment in our lives, whether it be personal or professional, it’s coming for all of us. That’s a given. Don’t run away. Don’t even pretend to be brave. Accept the fact that you’re scared. But face it, charge it, and conquer it. Then get yourself ready for the next one.